8.10.17

What Would YOU Like To See?

Oh Hey!

So I just had a thought.

I was looking at my blog the other day and I realised, one of the biggest reasons I don't post as often is literally, lack of ideas.

When I just started this blog my head was booming with ideas.

That period is gone now, now I'm always suffering with writers block.

Every post idea is annoyingly harrowing, so I don't even attempt to type it.

But then I thought (literally 7 minutes ago)

What if I metaphorically passed the mic (or keyboard?) over to you.

(There is an 87% chance this will fail, it relies on ANYONE reading to comment)

So if anyone reading has a suggestion for what you'd like to me to post about, feel free to comment

Anything from a Q&A, to a Tag, or A Day in the Week post, literally anything (within reason)

(Nothing too extreme like, "Travel to France and tell us your experience" I'm broke afff)

Or I could do an opinion post, where you give me a topic and I give my opinion on it, anything political I will definitely struggle.
Politics goes way over my head.

But yeah, I have a feeling this will fail but I've have some hope it wont.

And of course, anyone who gives a suggestion, I'll be sure to give them a lovely shout-out for helping this blog not die out :)

And in the off chance that I get loads of submissions (which I probably wont) I'll use all of your ideas!

So this is my plea, if you have an idea of something you want me to post about

Leave a comment

(or if its super long and in-depth, you can always submit it to me via my contact form)

My blog rests in your hands...

9.8.17

The Quest for Maturism

Maturism is a word right?

Pretty sure it is.

I don't think it means what I'm referring to (in this context) irl but I'm assuming you all know what I mean by 'maturism'

But yes, I'm on a quest.
One of the biggest personal challenges I face at work is how to act around my co-workers.
Obviously I act like myself and many of my co-workers love the bubbly energy I emit but its weird sometimes, like, maybe its because I'm the youngest there I always feel like a child.
Like everyone is so grown up and I feel like a baby, and its not really something I can help because I am young but I am trying to find ways to make myself appear more mature.

Some people thought I was in my twenties so maybe its just me thinking that I feel like a baby but still.
I want to make slight tweaks.

Any tips?

-

Part two.

(Yeah I'm shoving two posts into one to compensate for the lack of writing I do on here)

This one is called, "If feelings were a person I'd push them off a cliff"

So yet again, I have encountered another crush.
FUN.
IK IK.

jokes, it absolutely f****** sucks.

I wont go into detail because its longgggg but there are things that makes this person 'unattainable' which is pretty sad.
Crushes never work out in my favour.

LOL OMG THAT SOUNDS WAY MORE SAD THAN I INTENDED IT TO BE.
But yeah, I'm made peace with this whole situation,
but figuring how to unlike someone is very difficult especially when you work near them and they have given you no reason to unlike them (i.e. their personality is the best thing ever)
other than them being unattainable but sadly sometimes that even isn't enough to convince you.

GOD I HATE FEELINGS.
I NEED TO MEET OTHER PEOPLE AND DISTRACT MYSELF.

(I've appreciated that I've turned this into a diary extract)
I'm listening to Ed Sheeran - Supermarket Flowers atm, so its got me all, up in my feels.

Wait?
What was the point of this post again?

Lol, I just wanted to show you guys that I'm still here and I don't wanna post 1 thing over the summer whilst I'm sat here literally doing nothing.

-
But yeah, guys.
Help me out.
Give me some much needed therapy.

If you want to be a bae, comment below, tips that I can follow to become more mature, whether that be a different hairstyle or something and also, tips for getting rid of a stupid, unnecessary crush :)

Thanks! 

(I promise my next post will be something more interesting)

19.7.17

12 Things I've Learnt About Getting A Part-Time Job

Guess who's back?

Back Again,
Liyah's Back
Tell A Friend

(actually don't because I'll probably disappear for another 3 months)

Sorry about that, A-Levels and mocks and literally just taking ALL of my attention but I broke up for summer holiday today!
Woop.
(To be honest, I'm not happy about it at all because school&work are like the only reason I go outside, lol laziness, so now I wont see my friends for like 2 months unless I actively make plans.
Will I?
Probably not)

But yeah, I think I mentioned this in my last depress-fest of a post that I indeed do have a part-time job, I just past the three month mark actually and with that, I have learnt quite a few things.
Things I feel a need to tell!

So I hope you enjoy this post and if you're considering on getting a part-time job I say go for it!
It gives you experience and you get to meet more people, whilst making money at the same time.
However only do it if you can balance, college/uni/school-work with actual work.
I don't work that many hours so it's pretty easy, sacrificing my Saturday mornings is probably the biggest challenge I face.
But yeah.

...


#1 Keeping up pep is hard, especially when people scare you.

I'm pretty sure one of the biggest demands at any retail store is to like, smile&stuff at the customers.
Smiling - easy
Smiling for 4 hours+ - not so easy
My natural, relaxed face is not a smile, its more of a confused - curious face that probably looks kinda rude to other people. BUT I DONT MEAN IT TO BE.
I envy my co-workers that can smile 24/7 and easily engage in conversation with the customers.
pls, teach me.
Working has taught me I'm not as extroverted as I thought.
Definitely ambiverted.

#2 The "first pay-check bliss" is great, but it wears off.

First pay-check bliss : the euphoric feeling felt after getting paid 

(I made this saying up, pretty neat huh?)

Duration : can range from 30 seconds - a month.
Ends abruptly when all of the wages are spent and the bliss turns into DEEP shame.

Yeah, it took me like 12 days to spend my first pay-check.
The bliss has faded, when I got paid I used to be like "YAY"
But now it's more, "I got paid, cool"
(Need I remind you, I've only been paid THREE times, the bliss ended v.quickly for me)

#3 I've grown to hate my town

My work is placed in town, the main part where everyone shops, all the restaurants are and where the big shopping centre is.
I used to love going there all the time when I went shopping for a day-out but now, constantly seeing so many crowds of people.

Yikes.

#4 Standing up is, a challenge.

I work on tills which means I have to stand up for a prolonged amount of hours, this proves to be a challenge sometimes.

It was HORRENDOUS when I first started because my legs weren't used to it but now its kind of mellow.
Still tires me out though.

#5 I forgot how much I like meeting people

This seems to contradict the first point but trust me, It's different.
This regards my co-workers, majority of them are around my age and knowing them is an absolute pleasure, I forgot how fun it was to meet teenagers, with point #1 I'm mainly smiling at grown adults.
So yeah, getting to be more social is a huge bonus.

#6 I thought working would help me lose weight

It hasn't.
Because what ever calories I lose by working gets immediately added back on when I annihilate a double cheeseburger meal.
I have no self control.
Plus where is work is conveniently placed in between numerous fast food shops and dessert shops, so, I shift some blame onto that.

#7 My work has a smell, I like it.

Like the staff area has this weirdly-nice perfume-ish type smell.
Very hard to explain.
It smells like perfume, kinda but also like, a work-place?
So I guess that's ideal.
Lol.

#8 I'm pretty privileged when it comes to work, I should appreciate it more.

The supervisors are soooo nice and it's easy to talk to them casually, just like if they were your friend.
They are also very understanding and its great.
I also do get quite a lot of breaks, my friend who works at a different retail shop, gets way less so I'm pretty lucky in that aspect.

#9 When the customer line gets really long, the pressure kicks in.

This happens virtually every shift and since the summer holidays have arrived, it'll get worse.
Oh God.
And I have a habit of bagging way too fast and it tires me out, its because I feel like the customer is growing impatient, my co-workers tell me to calm down and go at my own pace but it's literally so hard not to do.

Also, what i've learned about long lines is, its better to have them than not because when the line is long you focus on serving customers efficiently instead of staring at the clock, therefore 25 minutes could've passed and it will have only felt like two.

#10 When I have like, two minutes left until my shift ends, I often make a deadly mistake

When I have about less than 5 minutes left until my shift ends sometimes I look at the next customer and I'm like "oh, they look like they only have a few items to purchase, I'll just do this transaction and then clock out"
I call them to the till and from behind them they pull out TWO LOADED BASKETS.
 

What. Have. I. Done.

So then as I'm processing this transaction, I watch my co-worker squad walk off the tills and I resist the urge not to burst into tears.

#11 Sundays have become my new Saturdays

After going to college from Monday-Friday, I think pretty much every student yearns for Saturdays where they can lie in,
But since I work now Saturday is not really considered a weekend day for me anymore, (other people at my college that have part-time jobs feel this way too) therefore Sundays are like how my Saturdays used to be.
Sunday is my lie-in day now.
And I cherish Sundays so much more now.

...

And there we go.
A few things on what I've learnt from having a part-time job.
I don't really have anymore to say other than, I hope you enjoyed reading!
Hope it made you laugh :)

Byeeee

27.4.17

I am Trapped





My unintentional three-month hiatus is over. If you thought I forgot bout you, think again.


Let me just re-express that this hiatus was never planned it kind of just happened, you probably think I’m lying and rightly so, I have had many opportunities to post something but instead I neglected my blog completely.

Apologises.

But it was a mixture of laziness and complete writers block but since I have been gone so long I do have some pretty cool updates.

#1. I got a job, finally. Not the job I intended to get because I had other places in mind but I’m still grateful. I won’t reveal it on here just because, but it is a very popular, very cheap, very big retail store in England and America (I think)

#2. I’m still 16. But I won’t be in a month’s time. I plan on getting a rainbow cake. (May 31st don’t forget guys ;)

#3. My Instagram plan failed in a horrific mess. I planned on having a cute page filled with pictures that were posted regularly but that plan literally collapsed in on itself.

#4. I plan on abandoning every moral I have. I promised to myself that I would stay loyal to the Android phone crew and stick to having a Samsung phone and I do currently but I plan on getting an iPhone next.

What can I say, although the IOS updates will be annoying and iPhones break so easily, the camera is amazing, the snapchat is better and you can get an iPhone case for cheap LITERALLY ANYWHERE. Literally any retail store.

Also the more expensive iPhone cases are beautiful, if you wanted to get something like a Marble Samsung Case it can’t be a lesser known Samsung like a J5, it has to be the latest like the S8. With iPhones, all their phones are widely known and you can get a gorgeous case for literally any of them.

Anyways, I’m getting side-tracked.

You’re probably wondering what the hell the title of this post is about.

It kind of originated from a Religious studies class I just had, like literally an hour ago.

I’m typing this at school on word and the environment is very loud.

The religious studies class was about ethical egoism and it focused on Max Stirner (a Philosopher) and we someone got onto the idea of what life would be like without any laws, rules, or social norms that we have collectively imposed as a society.

Some went with the obvious answer:

Corrupt.

 
But my friend was puzzled when I said, “It would be better”
 
Let me explain.
I put down on paper that it could go one of two ways, chaotic or just, better and I do know that people would utilize the freedom they have and become completely ungovernable and just cause terror but for others like me, it would be complete bliss, no social norms, no fears of what people think and no obligation to go to school.
With that, I would leave, maybe not permanently but anything can happen.
I feel trapped, in a bubble I cannot escape.
It’s not that I’m too lazy to escape, I just can’t. I’m held back by school, no money, no permission to leave and no one I can leave with because let’s admit it, It’s a naïve idea.
I want to go somewhere, no place in mind but just somewhere, anywhere.

wanderlust

ˈwɒndəlʌst/

noun

wanderlust

a strong desire to travel.

"a man consumed by wanderlust"


Without rules or anything, I’d take myself and I’d get into a car or a coach or a train and I’d just go, live somewhere new.
A new environment with new people and maybe sit in a field and read.
Or just go to a close coffee shop, order a drink, and sit and look outside the window at people passing by, wondering what thought is occupying their mind at that very moment.
I think about this all time and it makes me sad because to be honest, I’m not living the life I want right now and I only have one which makes it even worse.
You’re probably all thinking,

“You have so many years to lead the life you want”

Yes, I do but I want to use every year, every minute and every second I have to lead the best life I can.
But that’s not seen as realistic, is it? Nope.
Instead, revise for exams.
Go to work.
Etc.
Maybe everyone is secretly like that because that’s what I think, I think that a majority of people dislike the position they are in at this current moment and would rather be somewhere else.
It’s hard to accept that we can’t escape but it’s harder to accept that, that’s our reality.
I just want to get away from the environment I’m in, maybe because of stress but it’s more to do with a powerful curiosity.
I read a quote somewhere but I cannot find it anymore but it said something along the lines of –

“The whole world is your home, don’t forget to explore it”


My heart is so full,
Full of love I want to give,
Full of impulsive curiosity to just get up and leave.
I hope one day I have the courage to act upon my desires.

Thank you for reading.

Liyah.

9.1.17

RIP My Blog (Crucial Advice For Bloggers)

So...
As you can see, my blog has changed, again.
It was formerly "The Terrible Tales of An Awkward Teen" but now it has changed to "Liyah's World"
The reason behind this is,
the other day I noticed on my site instead of the banner and the welcome picture and my button showing up etc. there was a white exclamation mark in a grey box.
I was really puzzled by this and tried to look up ways to fix it and I found a blogger who ran across the same problem.
Pretty much the only way to fix it was to remove the pictures causing error and replace it.
I was really heartbroken by this because I had someone design my blog for me and I didn't really have much knowledge of how to go about changing my blog title and such so I used picmonkey since it was the only thing I could think of.
I don't think it turned out too bad but I will do more to completely remove all the errors, this includes making a whole new button.
I tried to contact the designer of my blog since she designs very well but her blog had completely disappeared and I tried everything to try and search for her but it seems she has vanished.
It was very distressing.
So after a lot of consideration I decided to re-brand my blog name to "Liyah's World" because I felt like previously having the name "Awkward Teen" and having a cartoon as my Google+ picture felt kind of.. childish so I have taken a step in what I believe to be a better direction.
My URL is still the same and I don't really plan on changing it, for now anyways.
But this whole change is what inspired the title "RIP My Blog"
In a way to commemorate the two good years that I was known as Awkward Teen :)

Anyways onto the advice, it comes from the story I just told and I believe its pretty worthy to know especially if you have just started blogging but it is also useful for current bloggers too.
Make it your mission to know how blogging works 
I should've known this sooner but I've learnt my lesson now, if you are going to get your blog designed by someone, make sure you are certain they are going to stay contactable just in case anything goes wrong and also make sure you know how to do things just in case they disappear such as creating headers and things like that because if you just rely on the designer and you have errors you don't know how to work out, you'll be left in quite a sticky situation.
Blogger simplifies how to do things pretty well so don't worry, you wont have to take an extensive course on how to use blogger or anything but if you do not know the basics now and you plan on blogging and running your own website, make sure you know.

Thanks for reading.

8.1.17

What I Got For Christmas+ My Plans For 2017


HELLO 2017

Everyone seems to be happy that its over but why?
I never saw a new year as anything else other than just a new year.
Sure 2016 was kinda sucky but it being over doesn't mean anything.
Its not like all the problems and the celebrity deaths have floated away.
To be honest I just see a new year as a constant reminder that we're ageing another year and getting older and closer to death.

Woah that got dark fast..
ANYWAYS I didn't come on here to be a downer, happy new year!
Christmas this year for me was definitely better than last years, I tried to be more festive and smile more since I'm normally a Grinch during the festive season and it turned out okay!
I never really want a lot of gifts, I normally just ask for one from both parents and they were both money.
The money I got for my mum I used for shopping, came up to a total of £130 and I got £120 from my dad and £20 from my aunt.
My friend also got me the book I really wanted which was Whiskey, Words and A Shovel II.
It was an amazing book

As far as resolutions go, I don't actually have any because I never actually complete them but I did make a cute little life choice.

**Insert Drumroll** 

I bought a journal!


I promised myself I'd actually write in it and I feel like I will, I have a lot of thoughts in my head, my mind is constantly racing so I feel like having a canvas to spill all my thoughts onto will help.

So that's my plan for 2017 as well as being happy and stressing less.
Not really a resolution, more like a life plan.
This post was short but hey, it was something right?
I hope your 2017 is starting out okay and thanks for reading!

10.12.16

Christmas Book Recommendations


Hey!
So if you follow me on Instagram (which you totally should btw, its liyah_ashley) you would've seen that I posted a picture of two books, calling them my "Winter reads"
They were called:
  • "Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel" by R.H. Sin
  • "Born to Love, Cursed to Feel" by Samantha King
Currently I'm half way through both books and I love them so much!
They're poems and relate to so many situations such as "singleism" and "unrequited love"
M Y L I F E
But also self-empowerment and self love, things like that.

I've bookmarked so many poems in both books because I love them THAT much
At first I was going to buy "Milk and Honey" by Rupi Kaur but then I saw the poems from WWS and Born to love, Cursed to feel and I fell completely in love.

Just for a little preview I picked a poem from both books so you guys can see what they're like.
A page from Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel                      A page from Born to love Cursed to Feel

Lovely aren't they.
Yeah, I'm not a book reviewer in any way so I cant really find the words to express just how much I love these books.
I literally feel so empowered after reading them and so many of the situations and emotions that are expressed through the poems are things I can relate to and things I've been through.
(At only 16, I know)
These poems teach me things, how I should love myself more and I definitely will be purchasing more of the books from R.H. Sin as he has more books available.
Born to love, Cursed to Feel is Samantha Kings first book but I look forward to more books from her coming out.
Also fun fact, both of the Authors are in a relationship in real life and they're relationship is beyond precious.
I know R.H. Sin doesn't really associate himself with Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel anymore due to some issues with the publisher, he focuses mainly on Whiskey Words, and A Shovel II, Rest In the Mourning (WHICH I WILL BUY I SWEAR OF IT) and his third and final volume of Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel which is coming out next year.

But yeah, I think that's all I have to say for now, I am aware that I am posting less frequently and I'm really sorry, I haven't given up, college is just so much work like its just essay after essay and assessment after assessment but I whenever I can I will try and post and I'm still active so you can still comment questions and feedback and suggestions because I still do check my blog everyday.
I'm planning on posting my 2016 Christmas list soon so stay tuned for that!

Here are the UK links for the books if you wanted to buy them and if you live in the US its much easier to find in places like Barnes and Noble (Check R.H. Sins Instagram for discount codes)

Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel- SOLD OUT
(Cheapest place I found)