9.8.17

The Quest for Maturism

Maturism is a word right?

Pretty sure it is.

I don't think it means what I'm referring to (in this context) irl but I'm assuming you all know what I mean by 'maturism'

But yes, I'm on a quest.
One of the biggest personal challenges I face at work is how to act around my co-workers.
Obviously I act like myself and many of my co-workers love the bubbly energy I emit but its weird sometimes, like, maybe its because I'm the youngest there I always feel like a child.
Like everyone is so grown up and I feel like a baby, and its not really something I can help because I am young but I am trying to find ways to make myself appear more mature.

Some people thought I was in my twenties so maybe its just me thinking that I feel like a baby but still.
I want to make slight tweaks.

Any tips?

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Part two.

(Yeah I'm shoving two posts into one to compensate for the lack of writing I do on here)

This one is called, "If feelings were a person I'd push them off a cliff"

So yet again, I have encountered another crush.
FUN.
IK IK.

jokes, it absolutely f****** sucks.

I wont go into detail because its longgggg but there are things that makes this person 'unattainable' which is pretty sad.
Crushes never work out in my favour.

LOL OMG THAT SOUNDS WAY MORE SAD THAN I INTENDED IT TO BE.
But yeah, I'm made peace with this whole situation,
but figuring how to unlike someone is very difficult especially when you work near them and they have given you no reason to unlike them (i.e. their personality is the best thing ever)
other than them being unattainable but sadly sometimes that even isn't enough to convince you.

GOD I HATE FEELINGS.
I NEED TO MEET OTHER PEOPLE AND DISTRACT MYSELF.

(I've appreciated that I've turned this into a diary extract)
I'm listening to Ed Sheeran - Supermarket Flowers atm, so its got me all, up in my feels.

Wait?
What was the point of this post again?

Lol, I just wanted to show you guys that I'm still here and I don't wanna post 1 thing over the summer whilst I'm sat here literally doing nothing.

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But yeah, guys.
Help me out.
Give me some much needed therapy.

If you want to be a bae, comment below, tips that I can follow to become more mature, whether that be a different hairstyle or something and also, tips for getting rid of a stupid, unnecessary crush :)

Thanks! 

(I promise my next post will be something more interesting)